~~I Can't Explain~~

I can't share with you my apologies.

I can't show you my rationality.

I can't send you the farewell card I made.

I can't suffer along with you.

I can't explain why I'm walking away.

I can't explain why I'm turning my back.

I can't explain why I don't seem to love you.

I can't explain that this wasn't true.

I would like it if you forgave me.

I would like it if you left.

I would like it if it didn't hurt, but....

I would like it more if this didn't have to happen.

Understand that I didn't lie.

Understand that I meant every word.

Understand that I didn't mean for this to happen.

Understand that I....I wish I could....

I wish I could change the world.

I wish I could make it easier.

I wish I could make it so you weren't hurt.

I wish I could change my twisted life.

I wish I could fix all your problems.

I wish I could undo all your pains.

I wish I could control what can't be controlled.

I wish I could escape from this spiraling maze.

I wish I could change.

But you know I can't.

I wish I could go.

But you know I can't.

I can't explain why I'm sorry.

I can't explain why I hate myself.

I can't explain why it hurts.

I can't explain why.