~~I Wish I Could Say~~

I wish I could say I believed you, when

You turn to me and say you love me.

I wish I could say I thought it was true.

I wish I knew how I could tell you

That I always knew it was lies.

I wish I knew how to leave you.

I wish I could stay, but there's

Too much you can't explain.

I wish I could stay without needing more.

There are no flowers this time,

Just these broken pieces of glass.

There are no flowers as I walk to your side.

I'm not ready to turn, not ready to tell

You how it haunts me.

I'm not ready to turn away.

I wish I could show you how I feel

When you tell me to trust you.

I wish I could show you how much this hurts me.

I wish you knew how this hurts me--

How you hurt me every day.

I wish you knew how much I really love you.

There are no other reasons this time,

Just the fact that I can't make it alone.

There are no other saving graces.

I wish I could say that all this was worth

The suffering you keep putting me through.

I wish I could say that I'm done with you.

I wish I could understand why

I run to you when it just causes me pain.

I wish I could understand why you treat me so.

I wish I knew how to help you

Through everything I'm making you do.

I wish I knew whether or not you spoke true.

There are no promises you can make

To undue the things you've done.

There are no promises I can believe you'll keep.

I wish I could forgive you

For hurting me like this.

I wish I could say that I don't love you.

I love you so much, even though

You hurt me this way, make me stressed.

I love you so much more than I should.

I need you, despite everything

I'm losing by swearing myself to you.

I need you, despite all this pain.

There are no other choices but to stay

Here and just hope for the best.

There are no other choices but to say, "I do."