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I HEARD IT ALL

I wish I could say

How unique you are, by saying

Everything I knew you would:

"Alex, you're amazing. You make me

"Really proud of you

"Don't underestimate yourself!"

I wish I could say

That I haven't heard it before

All the things you say, I heard it all before

Let me go; sometimes it hurts to know how much

Love there is for me.

INSIDE MY SOUL IS A DOOR TO DISAPPEARING

Interestingly enough, I do feel alive

Never really understood my issues

Somehow, though, I feel alright

Inside me, there's still life

Deep down, where no one goes, is where

Enchanted gates keep the numbness locked away

Mirages of life flicker from in the gates

Yet, I'll never open them

Somehow I know, that if I did

On the day that I did

Understanding of the world would flicker away

Letting the darkness back in

If that ever occurred, I'd never live

Sealed away for good, but how

Attractive a fate that is at times

Death, beautiful and cold. Flowing

Over me like flame and fire and ice

Opening my  eyes and leaving them open as

Reason flashes away

Taking me away with it

Old scars fading before bleeding once more

Doubt boiling and blasting, before disappearing

In a flash of brilliant light

Sin and sadism, my new vocations

Activities I'll always follow

Personal thoughts and

Personal space no longer matter, as

Even as I die inside

All inhibitions dissipate and allow

Reality and fears to fade

Inside, I'll be free, but

Never doubt there will always be

Guilt for leaving you behind

LUNACY

Lovers, bitter and beautiful

Understanding, cold and gentle

No; let not those two mix

Agony is all we ought to know--

Crashes and flashes of madness are all we have

Yearning for better, unbitter, days

GIVE ME YOUR LIGHT

Glorious love, glorious light

Into you I fade away

Victory right before me

Eternity awaiting us

My heart and soul heal and mend

East-bound wind warm our frozen hearts

Yearning hearts, clasped and bound, become

One as the night slowly gives way to day

Under a brilliant red dawn, let us dance

Race across mountains, hand in hand

Love and tenderness are finally found

In each other, we find peace

Grace and gentleness float from heart to

Heart, as we finally find out the

Truth: We were meant to be.

DESERVING?

Darkness inside, the world gives no mercy

Eternity of agony, always fading

Shadows dance and crawl, before suddenly

Ethereal light begins to shimmer on the horizon

Rays of sun soon break through shadow

'Venturous hearts soon travel once more

Into the dawn, they walk and meet together

Names and words leap from lips

Glory begins to show, as healing begins.

SOMEHOW, WE HAPPENED

Soon, soon we'll find each

Other on the horizon

Meeting will occur, and all the maybe's fade

Every bit of doubt disappear

Hope, so often a burden, be rewarded

Obscenities often uttered, removed from vocabulary

Wondrous eyes meeting

Wandering hearts

Each and every bit of pain fading onto the distant

Horizon; joy and light

Accepting us into their number

Peace flooding within, as

Peace is revenged

Eternity awaits

Never letting the other go

Even though there's pain

Death won't keep us apart

BABY, OH BABY, I MISS YOU!

But, I know we'll see each other

Again quite soon

Bitterness and distance won't keep me from

You, the one I know I love. I

Opened my heart to you, and let you see the

Hope that's kept me going so long

Broken shards of me, you

Accept them and piece them

Back together, whole once more

Yesterday's feelings fade away

I just miss you a lot, is all

Maybe's, in their numbers, don't go easily

I know I shouldn't doubt, but yet

So many of these other voices won't

Shush and leave me be

You understand, don't you? How hard it is to go

On when there's nothing certain?

Understand how I feel? Of course you do....It's you.