~~Why I Hide~~

I can't tell Ian so many things

Why? Because I'm afraid

I'm afraid I'll over burden him

I'm afraid I'll be the one that breaks him

After everything he's done

Who am I to ask him to do more?

After everything he's gone through

Who am I to put him through more?

I'm the girl that he loves

I'm the girl that he chooses over everything else

I'm the girl that will never leave

I'm the girl that makes him happy

I'm the girl that will be the reason

For him to move countries

For him to smile

For him to grow

I'm the girl that he loves the most

So why do I hide so?

I'm the girl I never thought I'd be

God, I hope I'll make him proud....

I should never hide from him

Even though I'm scared to hurt him

I know he feels when I shatter inside

Even when I never mention it

Ian, I apologize

For doing what I promised I wouldn't

For hiding from you

I'll try not to hide any more

You're the man I love the most

You're the man I'll run to

You're the man I choose

You're the one I'll wait for.....