~~Don't Get Close~~

I told you once, please don't

Make me murmur this bitter lie again

"Don't get close to me

"I'll leave you if I must."

I'll leave you if I must

As if I could go

As if I had the strength to run

I wish so much that I was strong

That I could move away from here

But in the end I'm only human

And I'm broken inside

Broken, but maybe

The scarred tissue of my heart

Will begin to beat again

Maybe it's already beating?

Maybe I'm already feeling?

Maybe this queer ache and this bittersweet glimmer

Is what it's really like to feel?

If it is, then that's amazing

I can truly feel

But, I say again, don't get close

Just because I'm okay doesn't mean

I can take your company if you hurt me

It doesn't mean I'm not fragile

It doesn't mean I can't still break

So please, understand me when I say

It's not personal at all if I send you away

I have to be selfish if I am to survive

I'm done saying I'm sorry though

To all the ones I hurt

Emily, Adam, Simon, everyone else

I'm over it, and you should be too

Life has passed

We've moved on

And I think I'm healed....